23 July, 2007 <3
The rain seems to be falling a little earlier than the previous years, experiencing wet days every now and then. Or is it that everyone is feeling blue?
Sometimes I wish that I can control my heart, yet sometimes, I thought it'll never be wrong to follow my heart's blind guidance. I know, that sounded very contradicting. But anyways, who'll understand, especially when you watch yourself fall into a pit helplessly and cannot do anything about it?
I sat alone in my room, thinking. That voice screamed again, and my phone rang. I received a call from someone I barely known for three days. She have been sticking up with my heels but it somehow got onto my nerves and she delivered some news to me which shocked me quite a bit. Then the voice in me spoke in a calm manner, asking me to hang the call immediately.
Frankly speaking, I admire her courage for approaching me like this. But I cannot seem to walk out of the mess that I am in now. The voice said I should hang on. But my mind said I am a fool. What's to be done? Let alone making the decision, I cannot even think straight. I need the comfort of a hug, I need the warmth of some love. Yet I am poking my nose into that person who will only love her someone else. Aren't I stupid? Do I have a choice? Yes, I do. But will that be what my heart wants? I can never seem to make my heart and mind want the same things.
Don't pry the wound open anymore. Let the wound heal by itself. A scar will be left, but better than nothing.
Our Endless Love<3
4:29 PM
