21 September, 2007 <3
Had a wonderful dinner with a few famous people just now at Grand Shanghai. Enjoyed myself, had two bottles of red wine, a bottle of champange. Then headed down club street with my mother to drink with my cousin and aunt.
Met the boss of W wine bar. He's very charming. Hees. Had two bottles of white wine. Realised that after having champange, I don't wanna change the type of drink after it. HAHA. Had a great time chatting with my cousin and aunt. Dreading the thought of leaving the east. They were wishing me all the best and I know they mean it. But why am I still dreading? Headed home and had a surprise.
Anyway, read alot of blogs today, since it's 4am and I have to wake at 7am, might as well find something to do. Ya, I was saying... Kinda feel that most people around me are so goal orientated and motivated towards their goals. I clearly know what I want yet I am still wandering. I wanna make my first million before my 22nd birthday. I wanna pick up dancing as a hobby. I wanna go back to music. And I'm gonna work hard as a childcare teacher, when I am certain I can definately go further.
But where is my motivation? I'm just feeling down and I don't know why. I'm searching for something but I don't know what. Sounds ridiculous I know. >.<
I wanted to start a new life, but I'm feeling 依依不舍 whenever I think of staying at Jurong. That feeling is overwhelming that tears were stinging my eyes.
I have to live life to the fullest. And I have to start somewhere, ASAP.
Our Endless Love<3
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