05 October, 2008 <3
I can't seem to differentiate excuses from reasons. Are things the way it seems or are there loopholes that I cannot see.
I am so sick of being a reason, I am feeling tired of it. It's beginning to become an excuse to me. I am so sick and tired of being the subject of quarrels as well as the "reason" for certain acts.
I need to live for myself, not for the world. I just wanna be myself, an 18 year old teenager who is schooling, having fun and doing things that I will regret in the future. But why, is my road planned accordingly but most likely not able to proceed with?
I am taught to make my own decisions and plan the road ahead of me. But everytime, when I make certain decisions or when I say something, it doesn't seem to be respected and treated right? So, what's the point of making such decisions at all?
You were the one who told me, not to worry and go ahead to do whatever that I like. Even if I fall, I am still young and able to stand up all over again. Yet you are also the one who spoiled my dreams, you ruined my hopes and my motivations. Don't you see? It's all because I love you and respect you.
But i am sick and tired.
I wanna run away.
I know I can't.
*Hide. That's the only thing to do.Our Endless Love<3
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