29 October, 2008 <3
Voices from the Gramophone 2008 (VFTG 2008) was a great sucess! Thanks for all who have supported and those who participated in the production!
I had great fun and learned alot during the process of this production, though it started off with a BANG (well, the 1m mirror ball fell from the flybar) and it ended off with a bang too! We were featured again on 95.8fm last night.
Through this production, I had the chance to meet many new friends and learned different things from different people. There's somebody I especially wanna highlight, HOCK HOE! He's always busy and don't really have time to talk after bumping into esplanade on the 23rd. He's patient and always there when you shout "HOCK HOE!" Without him, the production will be in a big mess. I had a great time working together with him and learning a lot from him. From artiste liaison to coordination. He's always there with advises too.
Also, through this production, I saw the true colours of the people around me, I realised how much my aunt loves and care for me, I saw the spirit of friends and family, also, I saw how jealousy can get people aggressive and detestable. I am thankful that through this production I saw the real side of someone..... okay.. here's some ranting..
Why did you have to cook up stories and spoil the relationship I have with others? I can't believe you actually did such a thing to me. Do you even regard me as a sister at all? How could you even try to spoil my relationship with Zen? Do you know how much it means to me? How could you use other people's names in your own lies and make them sound true? How can you put words into other's mouths and relate it to somebody else, and this particular person is so important to me? Are you dumb or something? How could you say things that are not true just because you want him to sympathize with you?
You wanted the authority that I had and you wanted to be in control of situations. Why didn't you consider why are you not the one in charge in the first place? Did you reflect on your own behavior? Why should you be in charge when you did not show your capabilities? Say, IF you do have the capabilities and that you are better than me in any other way, why were you not chosen? Is it because the producer and director likes me more or was it because they know that you are not suitable for the job?
Also, please listen to instructions if you do not want to get scolded. Not that I wanted to raise my voice at you, but next time, please revise the situation before asking stupid questions. I do not have time to entertain your nonsense. You did not go according to my plan and did opposite of what I asked you to, in the end you caused a whole lot of trouble for me. Because of you I had to face a lot of questions. You messed up my FOH and you put the blame on me. You used vulgarities in front of the esplanade staffs and you showed a bad attitude to me in front of everyone. After which, you bad mouthed me to my boyfriend.
You even asked mom to let you be in charge on the 25th. Do you know why mom forbade you to turn up in the end? Ask yourself! Did you even know what you were doing? You threw mom's face! Just because you are my brother I should let you handle my work? You think that you are my brother so I should listen to you in everything that you say?
During work, whoever you are, you will have to obey your authority's instructions, even my aunt listen to my instructions and did not say a single thing, who are you to say a word? You even told aunty Sebena that you wanna slap me? Look what's right and what's wrong. You think aunt wants to shout at you too? That's because of what you said to her!
Also, I am so disappointed in the way Zen handled the situation. You should have known me better and not believed in my brother's cooked up tale! Am I that sort of person to you in the first place? Do you think I will shout in the first place? Even my aunt knows that I won't throw a tantrum. You think aunty Sebena will speak ill of me to my brother? She's an adult, if I did something wrong, she will come directly to me and will not say anything to my brother.
But that's not it, why can't you stand up for me when someone else speaks ill of me? Why can't you speak up for me when somebody else is maligning me? It hurts real bad. Even if I am in the wrong, can't you be there to say something for me? Moreover, I did not do anything wrong at all! Instead, you doubted me and you wanted me to apologise to all of them. It was just a tale spun by him, and you didn't believe me..... Do you know how much it hurts? It sent a chill to my heart!
Even after aunty Sebena clarified the matter to you, you don't even bother to apologise to me. Am I such a bad girl that you cannot speak up for me? So you think it's true that all of them will say those things to my brother and that they will critisize me behind my back? They are close family friends and they watch me grow up. When I am at fault, do you think they will not come straight to me and let me know?
It's pure disappointment!
Anyway, the second day of the event was great! Everything was fine, without somebody messing things up. Also, Zen's mom and his aunt came to watch the concert! Saw his mom for the first time. I was so nervous!
After the concert, I felt so contented and satisfied. I was so happy that the concert ended sucessfully! Went for supper at rangoon road with all the crew and production members, had a great time chatting and eating. Reached home at 4 in the morning and slept like a baby.
On Sunday, went to Ming Yue's wedding at her hubby's house. Her wedding costume was so nice! The traditional chinese costume. And her hubby's doggies are soooo cute. One called cartoon and the other called maggie. Cartoon is chubby and have curls like Zen! (:
After the wedding, met Zen, his aunt, his mom and two of his little cousins at AMK Hub. Had dinner and walked around AMK for awhile. I took a train back home around 9.30pm. On my way back, Zen was like telling me "You passed." LOL. As though I was sitting for an exam.
That's all for now.. Need to continue with my assignment!
Our Endless Love<3
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